The Low Road to Soberville…

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I gotta admit, I expected more. Alot more. After four very long years without beers, I truly thought my life would have done a complete 180 degree U~Turn and I’d be on the Golden Road to happiness. Or at the very least, standing at the gate, waiting for somebody to unlock it so I could start heading down that beautiful road. But alas, no such luck. For all I know, the gate’s still locked because I sure as hell can’t see it from here.

Now keep in mind this hasn’t been four years of ‘total’ sobriety as I was still doing a bit of ’self medicating’ until Aug. 2nd of ‘06 but I haven’t had any alcohol as of March 6th, ‘06 so it’s been four years without beers. Shouldn’t that count for something? Isn’t there some kind of a reward for good behavior? Apparently not. At least not one that I can see anyway.

Tags: Addiction, Alcoholism, Dreams, Goals, Life, Writing

My Dearest Annabelle….

How do I even begin to put in to words just how much meeting you has meant to me? It seems that mere words aren’t enough to say what’s on my mind and in my heart. To tell you how I truly feel. Yet, in some way I need to tell the world about one of the most wonderful people I could have ever hoped to have met. While I made an attempt in an earlier post, You Were Right On Time!, I feel the need to let everyone know just how incredible you truly are.

Tags: Attitude, Dreams, Life, Relationships, Writing

XMAS SUCKS! There…. I Said It!

Yep, that’s what I said. Christmas really does suck. Not sure if I’m the only one that feels this way or just the only one with enough guts to say it out loud. And I really can’t say when it all changed but it’s just about the most miserable time of the year for me. Matter of fact, this time of the year has sucked for so long that I can barely remember far enough back to when it didn’t suck.

Strange though, how some of the greatest memories I have are memories of Xmas’ past, yet now I literally dread this time of the year. I can still recall relentlessly shaking every box under the tree, doing my best to figure out just exactly what Santa brought me.




Always hoping for a rattle, clunk or a knock of some sort. At the very least a bit of “weight”, insuring a cool toy. But I can still remember the pain and disappointment of the “quiet” boxes which signalled the impending let down of socks or a sweater. And needless to say I always checked the boxes that were addressed to my sister. Surely I couldn’t have her getting more “rattlers” than I was, right? Right!





When did it all change? When did it take such a horrible turn for the worse? I don’t think it was upon discovering the fact that my parents had been lying to me this entire time. That Santa really didn’t exist and that he was just some made up fantasy. Some commercially driven “Guru” conjured up to guilt people into buying more “stuff”. No, that couldn’t have been it. I was too young to understand any of that and besides, I didn’t see any kind of a drop in my “under the tree box count” once Santa was out of the picture. There had to be more to it.

Tags: Attitude, Blogging, Christmas, Dreams, Goals, Life, Writing

Nothing Personal…. It’s Just Business

With the millions, possibly billions of Blogs currently floating out ‘there’ in the Blogosphere, is there any room for yet another Blog?

Wikipedia defines the Blogosphere as: The blogosphere is made up of all blogs and their interconnections. The term implies that blogs exist together as a connected community (or as a collection of connected communities) or as a social network in which everyday authors can publish their opinions.
The term was coined on September 10, 1999 by Brad L. Graham, as a joke. It was re-coined in 2002 by William Quick, and was quickly adopted and propagated by the warblog community. The term resembles the older word logosphere (from Greek logos meaning word, and sphere, interpreted as world), “the world of words”, the universe of discourse. Anyway, happy ten year anniversary to the Blogosphere. Now, back to my Post.

Tags: Blogging, Life, Scam, Writing

Add It To THE LIST!

What is that saying again? A thought without action is just a dream? Something like that. Well, that truly seems to fit me perfectly. Lately anyway. Well, now that I think about it, for quite some time now I have had lots of trouble getting anything accomplished. While my mantra had always been, “Why do today what you can put off until tomorrow?”, I had hoped to change that aspect of my personality. I’m sure there are others out there like myself. Oh, you know who you are. So many dreams, too much time. Paralysis by Analysis. The list goes on and on. I’m sure there is a bit of procrastinator in all of us.

Don’t get me wrong, this is surely not something that I am in any way proud of but as with any flaw, be it physical, emotional or otherwise, the only way to overcome and to get beyond it, in essence to recover from it is to first admit that there is a problem. Only then can it be conquered. Once and for all.

Tags: Dreams, Goals, Life, Writing

IM vs TEXTING: Which Is Worse?

Jeez, is it just me or does Instant Messenger suck just as much as Texting does? Or do they both suck equally, just different size screens? I don’t know about you but the frustration level between what I’m trying to say and what is actually coming out on the screen can be brutal. Those that read my earlier post on texting pretty much have a good idea about my thoughts on texting. While it does have its place, you just can’t have a relationship of any substance, let alone with zero emotion, through texting. Quick snippets here and there are fine but an actual conversation, no way.

It’s beginning to appear that IM is more or less the same thing, only with a larger screen. Now, I have to admit that I am lagging rather badly in my typing skills and with that being said, I’m more than willing to admit that this negative attitude toward IM’ing could clearly be due to my lack of skills. I find myself constantly having to type as fast as possible, smoke coming off of both of my fingertips, all in an effort to keep up with a question that was asked four or five lines ago. By the time I finish semi proofreading and look up at the screen, just before I hit ‘enter’, my response is no where near where it should be in relation to everything that’s on the screen.

Tags: Instant Messenging, Life, Relationships, Texting, Writing

I Have Been Warned…or should I say “WARNERED”?

Tags: Cars, Life, Love, Money, Relationships, Writing

Can You Be TOO Smart?

What the heck was that? As it approached, I had no idea what it was. And since I’m such a car buff, I was personally offended that I even had to ask myself that question in the first place. Yet there it was, driving by right in front of my eyes and I seriously had to ask myself what I was seeing.

We have all noticed that as gas prices and insurance costs continue to skyrocket, as “GREEN” becomes the ‘in thing’ and so many changes have taken place around the globe regarding transportation in general, cars are getting smaller, safer and more fuel efficient.

Tags: Cars, Life, Recession, Writing

I Want My MOJO Back!

Hmmm, can’t figure it out. Somehow I lost my MOJO and I have no idea where it went. I have a pretty good idea how I lost it. That’s relatively easy to figure out. Heck, I’m sure there are plenty of people out there that have lost theirs recently. You don’t even need to watch TV, read the newspaper or go online to know that the economy is hurting these days and it has more than likely affected someone you know. Family, friends, coworkers, perhaps even you yourself have been affected in one way or another. Recession has become another household word.

Tags: Attitude, Life, MOJO, Money, Recession, Writing

On The Other Side

Wow, I am all over the place these days. I have so many thoughts running through my brain, 24/7, that I can’t seem to get a grip anymore. So many things pulling me in different directions that I’m just spinning in circles like a top. Well, more like a ‘Whirling Dervish’. In real life, I think dervishes are Egyptian dancers but I remember the cartoon version, pretty much a monster spinning out of control, only stopping long enough to get it’s bearings and then it’s back to spinning its brains out. I don’t think it’s necessarily a ‘bad’ thing but it wasn’t exactly pretty! More or less just a mess of energy spinning out of control, which is exactly how I feel these days.

Tags: Life, Love, Relationships, Romance, Women, Writing